Day 3 - 0FG

May 22, 1989

Dear Diary,

"I was running a temp, I really didn't feel like going. I feel really bad because I said I would take her but I didn't want to go."

Dear Jennifer,

Yesterday, mom gave me something to try that was new.  She asked me to take one day, and not care what people say or do and just trust my gut and instinct.  Going through your journals I noticed there is one thing you and I seriously had in common, we always worried what people thought of us. If someone was mad, we thought it was because of us.  If someone had a bad day, it was because we must have done something.

Mom specifically stated, Give 0 Fs.  So I wrote that down. It was funny, I intentionally wrote down my personal mission statement so that I could focus on that alone.  I didn't stray from it, I was kind and spoke with love, but I didn't let anything bother me.

The minute I started caring about something and worrying, I went back and looked at my phone which had the note 0FG.  I immediately let it drop and didn't worry about anything else but myself and if I was following my personal mission statement. It was very exhilarating.  I have always admired people that could do it, you feel free of worry and you stand a little taller.

I did the mind mapping with my students yesterday. We have 7 habits classes and they loved the mind mapping.   We discussed goals we want to achieve and why we need to stop worrying about what others think of us.  We discussed how much less of stress it would be.  I wonder if things would have been different growing up if we worried less of what people thought of us? We had a pretty amazing childhood, I think Jen worried more than I did.

I came home in a happier mood. I was able to talk to my husband and say I had a great day, instead of the usual, I'm fine.  I was probably the most exhausted I've ever been, so I went to bed and let my husband put the kids to bed.

Today I will require the same of myself. 0 Fs to G today. Be my best self, and worry less what others say. 

I am curious though, I haven't thought of something new for today, so I'm curious how it will play out.