Day 20... A new mindset

Dear Jenny,

Sometimes saying, "Well this is the direction my life must take.." sometimes has the feel of a disk that has been put on repeat..

1. Wake up
2. Write
3. Get kids up
4. Get kids and self ready
5. Go to work
6. Come home from work
7. Make Dinner
8. Take Kids to sports
9. Collapse in bed...

Do it all over again. That's so normal, that's so everyday... that's so... lucky and blessed for me.. You didn't get that opportunity and yet it sticks with me.

My kids are beautiful, they are healthy, they get good grades on their own, and are athletic.  My husband works hard and goes to school. So why am I just... bah-humbug?

I think the misconception when you are trying new things, is it should be exciting new, it should be something that pulls people in.

I'm not trying to pull people in, i'm trying to recognize daily something new I've achieved, or recognized.  I will rack my brain... One thing I did new that I always did when I taught 5th grade but not with my 8th graders is I derailed from my curriculum.  Sometimes these books are just insane.... well I took a leap and derailed my book from my 8th graders to teach them something fun while hitting all my standards!  It seemed to work, and I was able to connect to them why things worked the way they worked.

I really am still trying to differentiate my classroom and it is rough, I want kids to learn at their own pace, but also need to push them... I need one goal and to stick with it.  This is my biggest issue, I start with a bunch of goals and lose interest...

Well yesterday, I made up my mind to stick with one goal for the classroom, and always answer "I'm doing great!"  I'm trying to mess with my mindset... I want to have a positive attitude, I find myself going to the "Dark side" quite often.

So yesterday I had an epiphany that not everything needs to be so exciting when it's new.. it can be as simple as a  mindset... Today i'm going to "execute" the negative thinking and bring in positive thought plan.

Until tomorrow..